MS Eyes make things a wee bit slower. I try and explain to my friends and family how it “feels” to share my brain with MS. It is so odd to think of how I used to just pop around my day, running, jumping, hell just walking without thinking about each step I took. The best way to describe what my head feels like is when you consume a glass of wine or two and you feel slower, relaxed and a bit dreamy in the head. That is what my brain feels like now, so it is not horrible or even a bad thing really. MS eyes have forced me to be in the moment and appreciate what is happening in front of me. In an odd way I feel much more present and patient.
My vision is a different story. Vision can be a big problem with MS’rs. I finally broke down and got glasses this year but honestly I do not wear them much. My eyes change daily and I am just learning to adjust with the flow and watch my food intake, as the food really affects my vision. If I eat any sugar or gluten I know I will wake up completely blurred the next morn. One of my greatest fears living with MS is losing my vision. I have always been obsessed with taking pictures and documenting my childrens lives. Example: in our bank safety deposit box, I keep my childrens baby photos as they are one of my most prized possessions that I could not replace. The thought of not seeing the ones I love or the beautiful world around me is terrifying. I am claustrophobic and the thought of someone turning the lights off scares me.
Anywho, my food greatly helps my vision daily, it truly is my medicine…..I mean that with every cell in my body. I feel like I have some sort of control over it and that makes me happy.