Let it go has not been part of my vocabulary. It is no secret around these parts, I like to be in control. I think about things thoroughly from every angle and try to keep things running smoothly at all times. For the most part I have been pretty successful at this in my life.
I would never dream of leaving my house with my bed unmade, or going to bed with a dirty dish in the sink, or leaving a bathroom without making sure the towel was squared…..ok, now we are bordering on OCD, I know. Let it go. Breathe.
I have let go of so much over the last two years and it feels amazing. I have let go even more these past 5 months since my MS diagnosis. The last I still think about things and try to avoid trouble, however, I’m happy to announce I can leave the house with my bed unmade now! As silly as that may sound it really is a big step for me. I actually have a pile of dirty towels on my bathroom floor staring at me right now that have been sitting there for days. I am not freaking out, the world did not stop spinning, my family still loves me…..yeah, letting go feels ok.
I have learned that being superwoman is no longer necessary in my life. Being in control of everything around me was not important. Taking care of my body and my brain is what I do now, everything else falls second, and not in a selfish way, it comes from a very giving place. Giving to myself so I can be around awhile for those that I love.
Let it go…..whatever it is you hang on to, let it go, feels awesome.